Love Stories

This is just a rant to all the people at school who tell me I'm delusional or love obsessed.

People have being saying lately that I'm in to love stories. But that's not what it is they've got it all wrong. I love my action shoot 'em up and kill them books, and I wouldn't go out of my way to find a love story.

You see they look at me and say, 'You're a nut for love stories.' But I'm not, I'm a nut for hope. Hope that one day someone will walk me over a dimly lit bridge and kiss me, that someone will have perfectly calloused hands and life will just roll on smoothly.

Stories about love give me that one tiny shred of hope that I will actually have happiness and I won't die lonely. If they are going to look at me like I'm soft because I want love when I'm older,  I have hope to find nice people and I have dreams, then they've got it all wrong, life that is.

Life isn't about what makes you soft, it isn't about what makes you tough either. It isn't about books, or music, or mainstream or alternative. It's not about whether or not I wear polos or if I wear hiking boots with skinny jeans. It's not about whether I care about my appearance or get overly embarrassed when I fall over in mud in front of guys. It's about ups and downs, and when I read a love story it's afterwards that I get the up, and after that I get the down. Because it's then I realise my dreams are far-fetched and nobody in the real world has perfectly calloused hands. But then that's why I read, because hope is what let's any far-fetched dream become a reality in some form.

I know he's out there, my perfect guy, his perfect hands, at some stage I will find him, I just have to many things to do and see before I go looking. So if everyone could just stop telling me what I can and can't pass comments on, what is and isn't racist, what will and won't be fashionable, I would very much appreciate it. Go find your own ups and downs, don't try to make mine.